| MoooCow, hate e nosey. |
[Jul. 1st, 2009|12:39 am] |
I told mummy i hate my nose. SO ugly. Fat and flat like cow's. :( Makes me so sad staring at the mirror. I want to do something about it. But mummy say later i hit something my nose will crooked. :( Now she is cooking Tang Yuan for me in the middle of the night. (: Mama damn cute, cause she tells meimei she suspects i got tattoo. Impossible la, i so scared. Haha. She say ronald have so i will go put. Haha.
Anyway, the point is, yes im going to do something about my nose. Definately. |
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| stardom |
[Jun. 30th, 2009|04:29 pm] |
Today have been the busiest day of my work. Never been so good at Excel that im actually proud of what i have done. Whahaha. Counting down to home, in another 23mins.
Tomorrow is going to be a self delcared off day. Cause, baby is booking out! He is going for a checkup and im going with him. Finally. :D So excited to meet him, its been almost 10 days he is away. :( I can hardly take it anymore.
Anyhow. Life is good again. But still i need to get my desktop URGENTLY :( Humpf. But im still very very poor despite the pay. How? Anybody can give me best deal for desktop?
Right, off to slack till home! HATE SQUEEZING AND PUSHING IN THE TRAIN |
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| freeeedom. |
[Jun. 29th, 2009|11:33 am] |
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Yes, my last problem is solved. :D Damn happy! I cannot explain the happiness. Baby shares my joy. :D
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[Jun. 25th, 2009|12:44 pm] |
Good news 1. Today is pay day.
Good news 2. Lover's sol is reduced to only 7days.
Good news 3. Imma meeting my SIA babe on Sat.
Left with 1 more problem, hopefully to solve by this week and i shall be CAREFREE.
Workie Dorkie Daily Is Driving Me Crazily Madly. Duh. Like so many million gazillion of work. Should have pretended i was damn busy instead of grumbling how free im am.
Needa stock up my tibits corner. Running out of stock. I need food to keep me awake at work i tell ya. Food here damn suck cock. I want my boyfriend to cook lunch for me daily in the morning. Unfortunately he is at army. And EVEN he is not, he wouldnt wake up and do it anyway. :(
Gracious! Its Thursday AGAIN. MAD HAPPY OVER THIS. One more good news. I already slogged one month out of the 3 months!!!!! By 28 August, Kiss Good Bye to MUTHAFUCKING TUAS. NEVER IM GOING TO EVER NEVER EVER NEVER EVER STEP IN TUAS EVER NEVER EVER AGAIN.
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Last worry, GYM, please, bless me. :( I know you read my journal. You know im damn faithful to you. I love you GYM. Bless me kay? |
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| Abandon |
[Jun. 23rd, 2009|11:08 pm] |
Its terrifying how alone you feel at times. Like friends dont even call anymore. Those who were supposely close faded off. Its sad.
And even my closest is in camp. I feel hopeless and pathetic. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 21st, 2009|11:17 pm] |
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Happy Fathers Day. :D Save the mushy words. But love daddy.
Today was a really short fast and sad day. Cause baby completed his course already and have to go back camp. Whats worse is that he have to serve his SOL for dont know how long.
I miss ronald already. Now is the 1030 routine again. Gonna start being emotional till im used to it again. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 18th, 2009|04:24 pm] |
I wonder if the babes over at Sentosa are so damn hot with mega big boobs with most flattering figure that ronald see until stunned mode? He walked right into the sea to find mermaid? Kena hit by volleyball and fainted? Got buried 100m down the sand?
Apparently he is having TOO much fun and forgotten all about ME. yeah, EXCELLENT. |
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| Desktop PLEASE drop from the sky. :D |
[Jun. 16th, 2009|11:30 pm] |
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Im powerhardcore, i wake up at 530 for work and still can camwhore before i go work. Say hail amelia. :D
I want a new desktop because i cant fucking play my sims 3 on this shit. Im so sad. I need baby's desktop. I want my own. I need a mega harddisk and a fucking good ram.
I not longer have side fringe cause i went into the toilet with a sissors and came out with china doll bangs, AGAIN. Damn dog. Tomorrow is Wednesday only, cant time go FFFFaster. Omg.
This is only a pathetic week 3. I still got 9 more weeks to go. Where is the hero who always save the damsel in distress? The food suck cock i and feel like sleeping almost everyday without work. Damn. Baby is enjoying his block leave while im rotting my ass off. Im damn :(
Sulky bad attitude girl i am. I am sulky bad attitude girl. I shout and everyone, throw temper and piss people off.
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| Breathe |
[Jun. 16th, 2009|11:18 am] |
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Music starts playin’ like the end of a sad movie,
It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see.
Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down,
Now I don’t know what to be without you around.
And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can’t, breathe, without you,
But I have to, breathe, without you,
But I have to.
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| Lurvieweekend |
[Jun. 15th, 2009|09:03 am] |
Weekends are the best thing in the world. But it always ends too fast for me.
Friday after work was a damn expensive dinner over at Turf city. I had the biggest crab i ever seen in my life yet. Shoikest clams of all sorts. But i didnt really get to enjoy the food alot cause half the time im worrying about being late to meet baby for DlbO that night. It was a really pity. I think i ate only 1/3 of what i would normally eat.
So after dinner triple speed down to Gb to meet Love, i suspect he was already mad at me cause i took freaking long. But he says no. So, cabbed over to Muhd Sultan and meet Ahpui, Fx, Russ, Kokwei. But less than an hour of entrance, my dear boy was dead drunk. Afterwhich was alot of wrestling, screaming, fighting, pushing, dragging him home. It was a near to horrible experenice. Many the times i felt angry but i couldnt, sad but no reason so i just laughed it off. Pray that it never never never will ever ever ever happen again please.
Slept in till 1 plus the next day which is Sat. Im happy, crazy happy. Haha, cause Love is coming over to stay. Now i have someone squeezing in the same bed sweating and hugging to sleep. Favourite moment. Right after he reach, he went straight to my territory and plop on my bed then zzZZzz. Soon i fell asleep too until dad woke me up for my new specs! :D Collected my specs and when back to fetch everyone else for dinner at grams. After dinner went home and watched Draagonball on Dad's laptop till 12am then we went to sleep. So the night was super comfy with Baby right beside me. Got once he hug me real tight then i felt this magical moment, like adrenaline rushing through my whole body. HAHA. Damn stupid i know. I think im just hopelessly in love.
Sun woke up rather early than normal, bus down to amk with baby and ... BOUGHT MY SIMS3. WHOO! Damn excited, flew back to Love place and start to download play ... Damn fun. But couldnt neglect Love for sims3 so i went to accompany after a while. Went to Serangoon to meet his friend and after that Home! <3
Cant wait to really start on my Sims3, Tonight. Omg. :D
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| no me without you |
[Jun. 12th, 2009|03:58 pm] |
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And when you say baby, its gonna get better
I believe you
And I wish that somehow, I could see me the way you do
With my imperfections, you think Im perfect
When its not easy, you make it worth it
When everything falls apart
And it seems like the world is crashing at my feet
You like me the best when Im a mess
When Im my own worst enemy
You make me feel beautiful
When I have nothing left to prove
And I cant imagine how Id make it through
Theres no me without you
I like how i listen to this song and i can totally relate us it.
Like how i feel so tired to go on and you tell me how things are going to get better, and i almost immediately felt better.
Like how many imperfections i have you still love me unconditionally.
Like how you are my movtivation goal in the things i do so everything i do is worth it.
Like how you always with me even though im makeup smudged, looking damn pathetic be it crying or vomiting.
Like how you always tell me i look beautiful no matter where why what how in your heart.
And because of all this Likes, I love you. And yes, i cant imagine making it through without you.
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[Jun. 10th, 2009|02:38 pm] |
Wednesday, marks another day down calender. Perhaps is work but i realised every pass damn fast like its only been saturday just yesterday.
从来没想过
不能再和你牵手
委屈时候 没有你
陪着我心痛
Listening to chinese love songs in office daily is turning me into emotional wreck.
Wrecked. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 9th, 2009|12:35 pm] |
So after work yesterday daddy drop by yishun with mummy and sis to fetch me. To make my new spec, in purple and orange~ Haha. Sad thing is i think im going blind. My degrees increased again. Aww :( But im raather sure im gonig to laser when i hit 21 of age :D
Today is a damn boring day at work. No job to do you know! :( Why wouldnt they give me work!! :( Argh. Im so sleepy yet i have nothing to keep me awake.
Anyway i just finsihed Marley and me moments ago during lunch break. If was really touching in the end when Marley was about to be put to sleep. Almosr cried la, but didnt :D
So bored. How? :( I know! Shall go FML now :D |
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| Everytime we kiss, I can't think straight |
[Jun. 8th, 2009|01:45 pm] |
Week 2 down in my office. I have finsih all my work on hand and im getting really drowsy. In order not to caught dead sleeping i think i should blog post something random. So i can keep my brain running.
First up a few movies to download/watch/rent dvd:
1. Marley and me. ( Still dont believe how a tear jerker this movie could be. )
2. Twilight ( Yes, again. I want to day dream about Edward Cullen again and again and again )
3. Night in the Musemum 2 ( Need to start laughing, ALOT )
4. Hannah Montana the Movie. ( My midnight dosage of laughter )
Cant wait for the New Moon Movie yea. Cant wait for Midnight Sun. I need alot more books to read to occupy my time when im travelling to TUAS.
Cant wait for pay day, i havent checked my account for damn long, im so afraid to peek into my account :( Like i feel so insecured when my shopping money runs low :( I need to save. ALOT of money. Need to feel secured. :(
No shopping for GSS. Sigh. Speaking of it, im sucha idiot to forget to bring my wallet to work. Luckily i have 50 bucks stashed somewhere. If not i dont even know how to come to work i tell ya.
Feeling so accomplished from work. Printed and did filing today. Haha. Like usuals.
Sigh, back to stoning. Hope my superviosr faster come and give me work! |
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| Tuas Horror |
[Jun. 7th, 2009|10:47 pm] |
Sunday afternoon, cause i slept my way till noon and called baby to check whether is he coming down over to me place (: Happy cause he is already on his way! Woke up bath smelling fresh and wait for baby arrival. :D
Lunch with family downstairs, great food, great company whats more? Came back bathe and baby played dota while i read Marley and me, sis keep telling me i will tear like fuck upon reading. But i havent cried abit till now. Haha. Soon both fell asleep and woke up and packet food fro family :D
So baby went home closed to 10, now baby have reached home :D
I shall go wait for him to be done and sleep soon :D Nitey. |
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| WHY |
[Jun. 6th, 2009|11:25 pm] |
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My Livejournal is dying without pictures. :( Damn boring.
No outings, no shopping, no time, no money, no pictures. Going to Tuas everyday is really draining. I slept my day away today over at baby after my medicine. Wasting of time. But i think baby must be really happy im sleeping cause he can play his dota without me complaining. Haha.
GSS man, but im so fucking broke how to shop? :( Payday still long. Phone bill havent pay somemore.
The saddest thing is that on a saturday night im stuck at home with my laptop. I will always ask myself. Im so young leh, barely 20. People of my age on sat night is having fun, either partying nights away or just hanging around with friends. ME? At home. No life No life. Damn pathetic you know.
Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
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[Jun. 5th, 2009|09:50 am] |
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As I close my eyes
Sit back while reminiscing
Of when we used to fuss and fight but end up kissing
There may be sad and painful times along the way
But in my heart you'll always be everything and more to me
For I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up never
No we'll be together
Forever
For you are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
Girl you know that you
You are always
You are always on my mind
You are always forever
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[Jun. 4th, 2009|01:41 pm] |
Happy 1yr 8mths. :D
So today is happy anni with dear and also happy attachment day 4. Amazingly i have already quite gotten used to the enviorment and waking up hell early.
My jobscope is more of admin. Like filing, reading docs, spreadsheet and so on. (: So far i think i did pretty okay. Haha. At least i look busy bee in front of my supervisors.
Happy thursday nearer to the weekends baby. But just sucks cause i think im catching the flu virus. Yucks. Throat hurts like fuck. ( ZZzzZ, baby called to say his line have been cut cause he never pay money. Shit )
Toodles. Got to go back to work :D |
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| you me |
[Jun. 2nd, 2009|09:04 am] |
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Ronnie emily
Ronnie emily
Ronnie emily
Ronnie emily
Ronnie emily
Ronnie emily |
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| Lonza |
[Jun. 1st, 2009|12:41 pm] |
Woke up in an unearthly hour today. Cause is attachment day one. (: Couldnt sleep well last night, was nervous and excited.
Alson came to fetch me to clementi. I was so nervous. I thought i might missed the shuttle bus. :/ Fortunately i got on to one of the shuttle bus sucessfully (: Yeah. Reached Lonza about 30 mins or less i think. But the company was damn deep in. Omg, like the really west, west of singapore.
Briefing and lunch on supervisor. Now im seated in my desk. Relatively big. (: Im happy. Hope that my job scope will be on Admin and stuff. But i think it will be damn bored. I kinda miss FYP, at least i can facebook thereeee. They block facebook here :/
I think i kind of over dress. Haha. Maybe too formal. Should have wore jeans and save the 138 buck i spent yesterday on my OL wear. Gah.
On a happier note. Payday is 25th every month. Say HURRAY :D
Mental note to self not to blog hop and really do work :D |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 31st, 2009|09:32 pm] |
Tomorrow is the start of attachment. pray to GYM make sure everything goes smoothly. :D
Baby .. :D i love you. :D
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| Smells like durians. |
[May. 28th, 2009|11:43 pm] |
Havent been updating. I think people are sick and tired of me whining about my fucked up life now and then.
So, lets have some happy updates in point form. (: Happy doesnt meant goodnews anyway..
1. Yeah, i officially have an attachment (: So i have 600 bucks flying to my acc every month.
2. The damn office is at Tuas Baylink. _|_ ( Considering whether to move to auntie place at jurong )
3. Fyp is ending tomorrow :( / (:
4. Happy Ba Zhang Festive.
5. Tomorrow is Friday, after Friday is Saturday!
6. Going escape theme park with BAOBEI. :D
7. Stop slaming slabs of powder on my face. Quit make-up. HAHA.
8. Use Bio-essence, better skin ( GLOW )
9. A visit to the salon. :D Tidy hair.
10. ONLY 38 BUCKS FOR MY PHONE BILL THIS MONTH.
Anyway, ronald and me have big saving plans to do. While i save for our future he is going to save for something elseeee. Im going to keep it a SECRET first. Hopefully he gets it fast. :D Save save save!!!!
And i have decided not to shamelessly claim allowance anymore and should feed myself. :D I think.
I think thats all for this week. Still isnt quite myself YET. But i would get better. I think i re book damn fast. I re-readed New Moon again. :D Cant wait for the movie.
This is a rather messy post. :( Cause im darn tired. Goodnight PEOPLE. :D |
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| Emotional Ride. |
[May. 26th, 2009|11:50 pm] |
I'm tired. Mentally and physically. Its time for bed, but i couldnt sleep. I kept wondering if what i was doing right?
I realised i take criticism quite badly. I tried too hard to be perfect in everyone eyes that i forgot who i actually am. I change so often to fit in people perceptions of me that i think i have alot of personalites now. But it seems like no matter how hard i try i never fit in, or it was never enough. I thought i was good.
I tried to be a good girlfriend, good daughter, good cousin, good niece, good mates, good best friend or even a good person. But i always have to be put down by people words, actions, they think it doesnt hurt. It looks like it doesnt hurt. By who knows. Except me.
I cant, its not my way to be forget what people say that easily. I cannot tell myself that its unintentionally. It must be me. I must be the one with the problem.
Whats wrong with trying to be perfect. I know there isnt perfection. But at least i want to be closer to perfection. Almost perfect.
Creep - Radio Head
When you were here before, couldn't look you in the eye. You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry.
You float like a feather,in a beautiful world. I wish I was special. You're so fucking special
But I'm a creep,I'm a weirdo. What the hell am I doin' here?i don't belong here.
I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control.I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around. You're so fucking special, I wish I was special.
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[May. 26th, 2009|11:25 pm] |
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Im petty and take critisim quite seriously. |
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| Happiness gone down drain |
[May. 24th, 2009|11:31 pm] |
This few days were mad.
I just want to be happy. HOW FUCKING DIFFICULT IT IS?!
Baby.. You know. I wished i was crying in your arms beside the river again. Though im crying, but at least i felt safe. |
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[May. 24th, 2009|09:50 pm] |
This entry is going to be full of nonsensical and foolish thoughts but i just need to vent, if not im going crazy.
For a moment i wished i could just open the car door and dash out in the road, i dont care if im going to get hit by a fucking car or whatever. I just had enough of the cheebye naggings. I just want to run away and go missing and hope you regret your fucking actions. I couldnt stop crying in the bathroom, the shower splashing on my face. And tears rolling down as fast. I cannot even differiate which is which. All i knew is everything hurt as bad. I wanna scream, and screamed. Nobody heard it, but it was deafening in my heart. Like my hear tore open and it wouldnt stop bleeding. Smashing my fists on to the wall hoping the pain will surpass whats in me. No. No even repeat slaming on fist on the wall made me good.
NABEIKANINACHAOCHEEBYEPUBORBUACHEEMOTHERFUCKINGCHEEBYENILAOBEI
I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THE NONSENSE. BEING 19 SUCKS BIG TIME. |
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| As if he never existed - Bella Swan |
[May. 23rd, 2009|11:59 pm] |
I was re-reading New Moon again. So sick and tired of reality i thought i should spend sometime in fantasy world. But every page i read seemed to be damn heart wrenching. Esp. the part when Edward left. So suddenly and Bella was left alone to pick up the broken pieces, how every day is like living zombie, meaningless and aimless. I wasnt even so much affected when i first read it.
Kind of bring me back to hours ago. When i was fighting so hard with my thoughts and heart. The thought of losing you, living without you. No text, no call, no you. Like it was before. Scary. I hate to think that. I hate to picture life without you. Its too painful to even think about it. Bella only a fictional character. She couldnt even survive. If i were to take her pain and inflict on me, i think i woud die.
I love how i can read your eyes and how people say we look alike. How everybody tells me how much you love me ( like i love you ) it made me proud, damn happy.
I had a rough night, but i had you. All that was needed. |
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[May. 23rd, 2009|03:26 pm] |
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PMSPMSPMS. :(
I hate throwing tantrums at baby,
just because i dont feel good.
Argh.
I feel so sad.
He rubs oil for me cause of my bad cramps
Feeds me panadol hoping i will feel better
Hug me so i feel better.
All i do is to keep giving the black face.
WHAT HAVE HE DONE TO DESERVE ME?!
Argh.
Im sorry baby. |
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[May. 23rd, 2009|01:09 pm] |
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The weather is unbearable. I wished i was in the comfort of aircon every second. Worse. Woke up with fucking bad cramps. Now i have to suffer the discomfort of heat and cramps. I just feel damn pissed.
why does money makes the world goes round when its causing so much unhappiness to people? I hate how money matters so much it over power, love, kinship, friendship.
Can the world get more uncomplicated?
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| Play survivor |
[May. 22nd, 2009|12:22 pm] |
How bleak the future seemed. Like you cant even survive with a degree, whatmore a diploma. With lousy GPA. How regrets is always the worse feeling in the world. I wished i could have studied harder in year 1. And i could at least have a higher GPA, and proberly continue with my studies.
What would the future holds for me? More obstacles? Living is easy, seems like surviving in this competitive world is much worse. Everyday you got to plan for your future. You cant even live day by day anymore. Luxuries seemed even further than it already is.
Im afraid i will drown in the pressure of surrounding. Im afraid im unable to repay my parents with good life like how they gave me. I am afraid i cant work to save enough.
In need of a 避风港, somewhere i know i will be comfortable knowing im still safe even when the world crashes. Since when i need so much strength to even take a breathe? |
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[May. 20th, 2009|06:54 pm] |
My baby is damn cute.
Damn cute.
I told him mummy is taking too long to cook.
He ask me go tell mummy, " mummy, kuai dian, wo hen er." :)
Damn cute. I was imagining him saying it.
Then i imagining saying, " baby, kuai dian lai zao wo, wo hen xiang ni."
Haha. Self-shoik only.
Miss him super big time. |
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[May. 19th, 2009|12:45 pm] |
Public display of affection?
Sick.
Self reminder to discuss this topic with baby over the phone tonight before i sleep. |
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| Somewhere i think paradise. |
[May. 18th, 2009|02:20 pm] |
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I got a boyfriend who love to take photos as much as i does. Except that he gets knocked out faster. Haha. Im amazed by the many different faces i saw at the end products.
Im almost done with my Fyp, supervisor is rushing to submit. Finally im free. But not quite, i have to rush my presentation this coming thursday. Yawns. Boring.
Anyway speaking of photos, i was browsing through kelvin koh's photography, omg, he takes amazing shoots. Unlike those model wannabes shoots for magazines or blogshops. The photos he takes conveys love, kinship, happiness. He specialise in wedding photos. I like how the photos protray to couples love so immensely. Like anyone in the world could see they are deeply in love. And how he always manage to capture the happy faces. Good works, good works. The way i wished my wedding photos could be taken.
Picture speaks a thousand words. Is of the best use when refering to his photos.
Today is another day i feel damn F. I need a trip. But im afraid i will miss ronald if i aint going to see him for a few days. Just a getaway. Somewhere closer to nature, somewhere i can hear waves crashing onto seabed. Somewhere i can smell flowers. Somewhere i can do scubadive. Hehehe.
Somewhere away from this cold room :(
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[May. 17th, 2009|11:06 pm] |
 Hello people.  I love you this boy very much.  Like i enjoy to kiss him, and he OBVIOUSLY enjoys it too!  After the smothering kiss, he is totally smitten with me. Now im the dominating gf. :D |
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| Like an angel, without wings, and even more cuter. |
[May. 13th, 2009|11:16 am] |
I would sing this to ronald. Everynight, till he falls asleep in my arms :
You're the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can't go on, you tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
'Cause you have that effect on me, you do
Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you
Months going strong now, and no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me, I love you harder so
Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you
I would stare at his face for years and never get sick of the cute smile,
I would spend less and be merciful to his POSB card,
I would eat lesser meals a day to save up and buy a present for him,
I would say i love you to him everynight before i sleep cause i really do,
I would make him feel important in my life.
I would eat porridge, take bus, stay home watch HBO with him if we are poor and eat LJS, take cab, watch movie when we are rich.
I would be but his side no matter, up down left right, 360 degrees.
I would piggy back him if he is lazy to walk, and just acc him to sleep even im not tired, just to be his bolster.
I would cook maggi, make milo for him, this time, without whining.
I would do everything you deem it was difficult just for him. Cause he deserves it. I deserves all of my good and none of my bad. |
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| mAD Cow |
[May. 11th, 2009|06:21 pm] |
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This is the results of a late lunch with a cam whore sis, hungry tummy, angry filled, many facial expression.
Haha. I got the fuck face, fierce face, angry, sad ...Many more, and of course the act chio face. Hehe.
No me and my sister is not alike. Is SO NOT ALIKE. I think she is from the bin. Hehe.
Sucker.
Tomorrow meeting the boy! :D
Lovelovelovelovelove.lovelovelovelovelovelove. Enough? :D
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| Pray |
[May. 10th, 2009|11:15 pm] |
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i never imagine me wanting to be with someone forever. i never believe in forever. i never trusted love.
Until i met you, i wished so hard that forever love exist. Losing you was a pain to much for me to take.
I fell helplessly into love. Again.
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| Shop till drop. |
[May. 10th, 2009|11:02 pm] |
Yesterday was massive shopping with baby. Damn fun, and feel damn great to be rich, even for one day. :D
Though baby told me only can LONG LONG ONCE shop like that. Haha. Damn cute. So we went to Raffles place first to get my crumpler sling. Baby says it my bebebebelated birthday prezzzie.
Now baby and i have same bag. His is red mine is black :D
Next baby wanna go buy his slippers. Initally he wanted the nike slip ons. Those mat always wear. Then he decided to go Newurbanmale and see first. So he changed his mind to the the newurbanmale one. Since you get 20% off for two items, baby bought for me too! :D
So ..
Same shoes! Its damn comfy and its damn nice also. Haha.
Next we went to buy his momma a momma day prezzie. Bought her a watch from 25hours. :D And before we went home is FISH SPA. HAHAHAHAHA. Damn fun i tell ya, its like damn itchy and weird feeling .But baby say we can go again next time :D
Random bits of love
Humans shouldnt be greedy but i wished everyday were this happy.
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[May. 6th, 2009|01:55 pm] |
Finally i was brave enough to donate blood, but unfortunately, my iron level was below standard. :( So sad. They actually poke my finger already you know! Nevermind, shall do it again next time. Even my blood pressure is lower than normal people.
Sores and more sores from yesterday Nafa/Ippt. Though i still failed my 2.4, but im proud cause at least i finsih the rounds. Haha. It was a killer. I will make a mental note to exercise and be healthy. Like drag ronald to exercise with me more often.
Still tired and sore, i shall sleep early tonight, and every other night. Sucks to be fyp because i have to wake up fucking early in the morning. Damn morning seriously.
Cant wait for friday to snuggle up with ronald. Haha. My ultimate comfort zone. |
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| babbbababy! |
[May. 5th, 2009|08:57 pm] |
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tmr, 6 may, i'll be starting my bikee course already. and what's more it'll be 8 - 5. can go home, sleep on my bed, relax, watch tv, online, talk to you, post lj for you and stuffs which couldn't be done in camp.
in camp, no tv, no com, nothing inside, except, on the phone with you, and 10.30, LIGHTS OUT.
and as you promised, you will come dinner with me one okay?
:D
i'll be waiting for that day okay?
iloveyou, hunnybunny.
and i know today's ippt was a killer for you, but you apply some medicine and rub yourself okay?
and go sleep early also okay?
tmr, you'll be having school also. okay?
wo ai ni, yi bei zhi. :)
04/05/09,
happy 1yr7months, baby. :)
and still going on. :)
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| You took my heart when you left |
[May. 3rd, 2009|11:31 pm] |
Ronald is not here to sayang me to sleep like yesterday. I feel sad. I wished he didnt have to report to camp. Camp is taking extra precaution, if influenza is getting worse they will all have to be quarantine in camp for 2 weeks. God. :(
Im damn tired. Eyes are closing but im so hungry. I have super craves for Big breakie now. I want to have it with ronald.
Sigh, goodnight love. Sleep well in camp. I will take ah bear as you and hug you to bed. Aww.
CAMP SERIOUSLY SUCK COCK. :(
Whatever, i love you baby. |
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| Your face is hashbrowns. |
[May. 3rd, 2009|04:46 pm] |
If only every morning is like today. I woke up by slapping my hand on ronald's face. Hehe. Waking up to his face is better than Mac big breakfast i tell you. Haha.
Last night was a hole in my pocket. No matter how i tell myself i have to save, i never. So disappointed with myself. K box with ronald and his campmates , wifes, gfs. Rah. The room was already ex. Then i have to go order another jug of beer when im already tipsy. So, i have to stumble and fall into the toilet, hug the bowl and puke shit. I hate how miserable i feel. Then my love got me a cuppa of tea which i felt instantly better.
Cab home was killer. Like 20 bucks. WTF OKAY. :( Dash through the door so shut Minnie up so she doesnt wake the whole family. Bath and sleep, in the most heaven like arms.
Before i slept, i think i kept mumbling, and mumbling how much i love ronald. Corny. But i need to let him know. (:
He is booking in today again. But tuesday onwards he will e 8-5 for a month! Happy right, at least he isnt so far away from me. Somewhere nearer when he sleeps, liek Geylang Bahru, and BEST SHIT. No lights out!
Its alright if there isnt forever. I will just stay with you till everything ends.
I dont need forever, i got you.
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| Ding Dong Bell. |
[May. 1st, 2009|10:06 pm] |
FEP today with stephy again. Haha.
Bought tank top and skirt. Initally wanted to buy shoes, bags ...
What if im a air stewardess like steph? Haha. |
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[Apr. 30th, 2009|11:24 pm] |
Impromptu meet up with Qiuling. Miss those day i whack her tiny bits so hard. So i reminisce it today. Hehe. And the ccb conversation. Went for mango sago, shoik. :D
And a gazillion of gossips. Damn we are true bitch ( shows wtf sign ) Haha.
Tomorrow im going to meet stephie! I love how busy life is. Like never ending fun.
Change is the only constant, and humans can never get enough.
So many wild thoughts im going crazy.
Crazily happy. :D |
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| Self reflection 2 |
[Apr. 30th, 2009|08:31 am] |
Just last night before i fell asleep, i laid on my bed thinking about many things. Like how have i spent my previous 19 years of life. Whether i was happy with my life. I thought of so many things.
Like family. I have them, im contented. They never ask for more of what i could give. And gave me what i asked for always, even if its beyond their reach. I love them like no one will. Cause we are a family. No matter what happens, i meant whatever bullshit you get outside. They are the one who never give you up. I need my hubby to love my parents more than me next time. And for family i meant the whole lot. ( Parents, sister, uncle, aunties and all the ling ling long long cousins. ) Never felt so precious.
Friends, mummy taught me, one doesnt need to have many true friends. Like one or two. For me, i have two or maybe three. Like Qiuling, Junling and Stephanie. They are people whom im so closed with, like i can hit Qiuling on the butt, kiss her on the cheeks. Laugh myself silly or cry myself pathetic to Junling. Talk and shopped like nothing with Stephanie. They have seen my ugliest side, im not afraid some what like my family. Like love. Haha. Corny shit. Qiuling is gonna so laugh when she reads it.
Loveee again. I have fallen in, fallen out of love. Heartbreaks, teary nights, nights so horrible i feel like jumping out of the window. But non of any of te past r/s i have can be compared to the current one. Its feels like really love. I like how being in love feels so sweet, so secured, protected. No matter who where what how, there is someone in my heart. I like the feeling of having someone occupying the space in the heart. But sometimes love is too much hassle. The sacrifices you have to keep, restrictions and constraints to the amount of fun you were suppose to be having. The commitment to your partner. Wasnt easy. But i still can say im happily in love, for now.
I wrote it down cause i want to remember this particular part of my life. |
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[Apr. 29th, 2009|07:55 pm] |
Lookin' in your eyes while you on the other side
I can't take it no more baby I'm comin for you
You keep doin' it on purpose whindin and workin' it
If we close our eyes it could be just me and you
I wanna make love in this club 'ey (in this club 'ey in this club 'ey)
I wanna make love in this club 'ey (in this club 'ey in this club 'ey)
You make me feel the way i aint suppose to feel. |
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[Apr. 28th, 2009|11:23 pm] |
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Black hair again. Shoik. Hehe. I can be hairdresser, cause i can cut my own hair and dye it. Haha. I miss black hair so much, but i think my hair never have been THIS BLACK.
I can never understand what i want. I fear regrets. Its the worse feeling in the world.
Most people say im lucky, cause i have ronald. Who loves me and dotes me like everything. I feel lucky too. And thankful.
Is ronald who made me who brought me here. |
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